they're coming to destroy me and i'm not leaving.
you can go save yourself, i'm taking all they've got and i'm pretty sure i won't survive.
so, go. i'm still going to be here after all this is over.
make sure everything you do is for the best.
as long as you're happy, i'm happy.
if you ever need me, i'll be here... waiting.
nothing ever goes according to plan for me.
i get my hopes up just so they can come crashing down to the ground.
if something does go perfectly for me, i'd probably think i'm dreaming.
because i probably am.
idgaf.
if i went out in public with just my underwear and a shirt on, i really wouldn't care. i can care less about whatever the fuck is cool right now or if people think i'm weird. i don't really give a fuck about what the norm is or whether what i'm doing is okay or not. i really don't care about the majority of the population. i stopped caring a long time ago. and most of my emotions froze into a large block of ice way before i stopped caring.
at least i'm not a complete loser.
but i will admit that i am a dork.
at least i'm not a complete loser.
but i will admit that i am a dork.
what if.
if i suddenly gained a superhuman ability, like superstrength or incredibly fast reflexes, i would be really happy with myself. well... maybe not superstrength (it's kinda over used).
if i gained some sort of power or ability, i can do something really fun with my life.
instead of writing this, i can kick some ass and make some sort of costume so i can be a superhero.
i won't wear any tights or make it flamboyant.
why?
because it's gay... obviously.
also, so i can become a symbol this city needs.
if i gained some sort of power or ability, i can do something really fun with my life.
instead of writing this, i can kick some ass and make some sort of costume so i can be a superhero.
i won't wear any tights or make it flamboyant.
why?
because it's gay... obviously.
also, so i can become a symbol this city needs.
bittersweet.
happiness is only how you see it.
i don't know where that came from. i thought of that on a sunday morning after i woke up. weird huh.
anywho, there must be something wrong with me. i've been laughing at pretty much everything. did somebody exhale an everlasting hit of marijuana into my mouth when i was asleep? whether it be funny, or if something bad happens to somebody (even if it's me), i'd laugh at it. even when nobody else is laughing or if it's not supposed to be funny, i'd laugh at it. if something truly unfortunate happens to me in the time span in which this grim laughter is occuring, i really wouldn't care. i might just laugh at how sad or fucked up it is. LMAO.
i don't know where that came from. i thought of that on a sunday morning after i woke up. weird huh.
anywho, there must be something wrong with me. i've been laughing at pretty much everything. did somebody exhale an everlasting hit of marijuana into my mouth when i was asleep? whether it be funny, or if something bad happens to somebody (even if it's me), i'd laugh at it. even when nobody else is laughing or if it's not supposed to be funny, i'd laugh at it. if something truly unfortunate happens to me in the time span in which this grim laughter is occuring, i really wouldn't care. i might just laugh at how sad or fucked up it is. LMAO.
repression.
why am i trying to get rid of my emotions?
i dont know.
there must be something wrong with me.
i digress, i think im better without them.
nevermind, i dunno what to do.
i wish things aren't complicated.
i dont know.
there must be something wrong with me.
i digress, i think im better without them.
nevermind, i dunno what to do.
i wish things aren't complicated.
holy hell.
my body is out of fucking whack right now.
i'm not hungry, i get tired at the most random times, and i feel happy when i actually don't feel too well.
i think i'm dying.
or it just might be puberty.
either way, i hope it ends soon.
i'm not hungry, i get tired at the most random times, and i feel happy when i actually don't feel too well.
i think i'm dying.
or it just might be puberty.
either way, i hope it ends soon.
robots.
i wonder how the world would be without emotions.
music and a lot of creative artforms wouldn't exist because they're inspired by emotion.
not to mention we would be boring lumps of crap who don't give a shit.
but we won't feel the bad feelings that we get that sometimes leads to suicide.
those types of emotions actually led to horrible outcomes. such as school shootings, terrorism, and the holocaust.
and we won't feel the wonderful things like pleasure, joy, and love.
maybe we would have all of that futuristic bullshit that we all dream about, but don't have a fucking clue how to make because we spend our time dealing with stress, insecurity, and the joys of life.
i actually have an idea of how things might turn out without emotions:
a futuristic wasteland.
music and a lot of creative artforms wouldn't exist because they're inspired by emotion.
not to mention we would be boring lumps of crap who don't give a shit.
but we won't feel the bad feelings that we get that sometimes leads to suicide.
those types of emotions actually led to horrible outcomes. such as school shootings, terrorism, and the holocaust.
and we won't feel the wonderful things like pleasure, joy, and love.
maybe we would have all of that futuristic bullshit that we all dream about, but don't have a fucking clue how to make because we spend our time dealing with stress, insecurity, and the joys of life.
i actually have an idea of how things might turn out without emotions:
a futuristic wasteland.
wow.
all i can say is:
i don't know what to feel right now...
is it bad? i don't know.
is it good? who knows.
i hope that i don't end up regretting everything i've done.
because i don't know how things are going to end up.
i just want to stay happy.
"drew, what the fuck is wrong with you?"
"who's talking to me?"
"your concience."
"ooh! what's going to happen tomorrow?"
"i'm your concience, not a fortune teller. you fucking idiot."
i don't know what to feel right now...
is it bad? i don't know.
is it good? who knows.
i hope that i don't end up regretting everything i've done.
because i don't know how things are going to end up.
i just want to stay happy.
"drew, what the fuck is wrong with you?"
"who's talking to me?"
"your concience."
"ooh! what's going to happen tomorrow?"
"i'm your concience, not a fortune teller. you fucking idiot."
ugh.
boredom is really getting to me.
i wish i could drive.
then i would go where ever the hell the wind takes me.
that was corny.
whatever...
i wish i could drive.
then i would go where ever the hell the wind takes me.
that was corny.
whatever...
happy holloween.
it's not my favorite holiday. but, watever.
i can safely say that i'm a moody ass sonuvabitch.
"WHAT?!"
"...mhm...."
"NO WAY!!"
"...way..."
i can safely say that i'm a moody ass sonuvabitch.
"WHAT?!"
"...mhm...."
"NO WAY!!"
"...way..."
i made this in zach and jake's house.
i'm such a badass for this. lol.
i love the fact that i have good friends.
oh well....
PEACE.
i love the fact that i have good friends.
oh well....
PEACE.
my christmas list.
-my own laptop.
-a good time.
-a car.
why do i want a good time for christmas?
well, why the hell does Billy Mays have to be so awesome?
anyways, most people will probably just wonder why i'm making my christmas list in October.
-a good time.
-a car.
why do i want a good time for christmas?
well, why the hell does Billy Mays have to be so awesome?
anyways, most people will probably just wonder why i'm making my christmas list in October.
ooh, a peice of candy.
"there's a leech on your leg."
"huh?"
"nothing. don't worry about it."
what is it about people as a whole that confuses me?
is it how diverse everyone and everything is?
or is there something that i don't understand?
i don't know. but, there's something i do know....
trying to learn everything isn't as cracked up to be as it sounds.
what i'm trying to say is: "scientists should stop trying to learn everything for once."
they should take a break, get drunk, or get high. why not?
let yourself have a life for once.
"huh?"
"nothing. don't worry about it."
what is it about people as a whole that confuses me?
is it how diverse everyone and everything is?
or is there something that i don't understand?
i don't know. but, there's something i do know....
trying to learn everything isn't as cracked up to be as it sounds.
what i'm trying to say is: "scientists should stop trying to learn everything for once."
they should take a break, get drunk, or get high. why not?
let yourself have a life for once.
still on a wave of satisfaction.
The Pixies made their headquarters in my mind. and they won't stop playing Wave of Mutilation.
yay me. at the moment, i'm happy with... pretty much, everything.
maybe not everything, but i'm happy with most of everything right now.
doodeeleedoo.... dada.... dee.... doodeeleedum
well, PEACE OUTS muddapuckas.
yay me. at the moment, i'm happy with... pretty much, everything.
maybe not everything, but i'm happy with most of everything right now.
doodeeleedoo.... dada.... dee.... doodeeleedum
well, PEACE OUTS muddapuckas.
leave me.
i'm so sick of seeing and hearing bullshit everyday.
one of these days.... straight to the moon....
i can't go to school without feeling like i'm defeated.
don't worry, i'm not going to commit suicide.
there's so much to live for.
then again....
no, there's a reason i'm here. almost everybody has a reason to be alive.
for the rest of you that don't have a purpose, do something with yourselves.
i'm just glad i still have whatever dignity my parents didn't strip me of already.
one of these days.... straight to the moon....
i can't go to school without feeling like i'm defeated.
don't worry, i'm not going to commit suicide.
there's so much to live for.
then again....
no, there's a reason i'm here. almost everybody has a reason to be alive.
for the rest of you that don't have a purpose, do something with yourselves.
i'm just glad i still have whatever dignity my parents didn't strip me of already.
wave of satisfaction.
i freaking love The Pixies now.
um... i'm drawn at a blank here..... hmm.... forgot what i was going to say.
.
.
.
oh yeah, FLCL is awesome too.
i don't know how you could sleep at night if you don't know what FLCL is.
Well... i love the fact that i'm getting really fawking creative art wise.
but, i'm hating that i'm not at the same level of happiness with life right now as i am with my muses.
i'm just going to have to do something about that.
um... i'm drawn at a blank here..... hmm.... forgot what i was going to say.
.
.
.
oh yeah, FLCL is awesome too.
i don't know how you could sleep at night if you don't know what FLCL is.
Well... i love the fact that i'm getting really fawking creative art wise.
but, i'm hating that i'm not at the same level of happiness with life right now as i am with my muses.
i'm just going to have to do something about that.
dissapointing miracles.
my imagination is growing and evolving every single day.
so is my knowledge of the world.
so i decided to write a story about a great adventure. lolz.
Two adolescents end their school day in hopes the rest of their day goes great. They leave school to get some money for their plans later. Once their first 'quest' is accomplished, they walk to the nearest area of resfreshment to quench their thirst. It turns out Cody, one of the teens is hungry as well. Drew on the other hand, is not.lol
Once they are refilled with liquids that will give them the energy to venture to the familiar land of Cordeliand.
They tried to chillax at their companion, Sach's, house. but he was being a douche and told us he was going to a football game. As they tried to find a place where they could find food and shelter (because they were being hobos), they try to hit up their fellow teens to see if they were down to hang out with us. To their dismay, most of them were going to the football game and the two were greatly disappointed.
But, a very kind and somewhat badass friend of theirs obliged to join our journey. even though they weren't so sure about chillin' wit their bud. So they go to the Brook of Oak and meet up with the vibrant couple whom they didn't mind being with. It turns out their friend was there too. So, they relax at the Oak with him after they have a conversation with Cody and Hailey (the couple).
He tried to offer them some "fun plants", but they refused. Instead, they converse about Tony, the T-Birds, cheese, and a knife. After their encounter with him, they try to find another place of fortitude.
They called and walked for a long while. Minutes became thirty minutes, and thirty minutes became sixty, and so on and so forth. Eventually, they ended up and Hailey's house and finally had a place to chill. They had a very relaxing and good time at her home. Cody even played finger fooz.
When time came that they leave, Drew and Cody choose to walk to the football game to meet up with the rest of the gang, alliance, whatever the hell you want to call it. to make a long story short, they froze their asses off waiting.
Suddenly, the terrible lords that own Drew forced him to return to his home even though he wasn't finished with his valiant quest of fun, food, and go karts. he could have even played laser tag. Drew was very angry, so angry in fact, his penis punched his pants and receded from the pain.
Drew had to leave Cody to freeze all because his overlords were being pricks. Thankfully, the rest of the horde left the football game and proceeded to the palace which is known as Scandia and had a blast whilst Drew was hella pissed at home.
Well, at least Drew had time to to what he does best, draw and write retarded stories of what happened to him.
"... and that was my bogus adventure with one of my good friends cody."
"grandpa drew, you're so lame."
"i know, i know."
so is my knowledge of the world.
so i decided to write a story about a great adventure. lolz.
Drew and Cody's Bogus Adventure
Two adolescents end their school day in hopes the rest of their day goes great. They leave school to get some money for their plans later. Once their first 'quest' is accomplished, they walk to the nearest area of resfreshment to quench their thirst. It turns out Cody, one of the teens is hungry as well. Drew on the other hand, is not.
Once they are refilled with liquids that will give them the energy to venture to the familiar land of Cordeliand.
They tried to chillax at their companion, Sach's, house. but he was being a douche and told us he was going to a football game. As they tried to find a place where they could find food and shelter (because they were being hobos), they try to hit up their fellow teens to see if they were down to hang out with us. To their dismay, most of them were going to the football game and the two were greatly disappointed.
But, a very kind and somewhat badass friend of theirs obliged to join our journey. even though they weren't so sure about chillin' wit their bud. So they go to the Brook of Oak and meet up with the vibrant couple whom they didn't mind being with. It turns out their friend was there too. So, they relax at the Oak with him after they have a conversation with Cody and Hailey (the couple).
He tried to offer them some "fun plants", but they refused. Instead, they converse about Tony, the T-Birds, cheese, and a knife. After their encounter with him, they try to find another place of fortitude.
They called and walked for a long while. Minutes became thirty minutes, and thirty minutes became sixty, and so on and so forth. Eventually, they ended up and Hailey's house and finally had a place to chill. They had a very relaxing and good time at her home. Cody even played finger fooz.
When time came that they leave, Drew and Cody choose to walk to the football game to meet up with the rest of the gang, alliance, whatever the hell you want to call it. to make a long story short, they froze their asses off waiting.
Suddenly, the terrible lords that own Drew forced him to return to his home even though he wasn't finished with his valiant quest of fun, food, and go karts. he could have even played laser tag. Drew was very angry, so angry in fact, his penis punched his pants and receded from the pain.
Drew had to leave Cody to freeze all because his overlords were being pricks. Thankfully, the rest of the horde left the football game and proceeded to the palace which is known as Scandia and had a blast whilst Drew was hella pissed at home.
Well, at least Drew had time to to what he does best, draw and write retarded stories of what happened to him.
"... and that was my bogus adventure with one of my good friends cody."
"grandpa drew, you're so lame."
"i know, i know."
gawd.
frustration and stress have been gettin to me...
i really want to beat the living hell out of somebody.
i socked my brother cuz he was fuckin around. but that's not important.
i feel like my emotions are chained to a wall...
and the only ones getting out are the bad ones.
for some reason, they persevere...
nothing's helping out.
thanks nothing.
i really want to beat the living hell out of somebody.
i socked my brother cuz he was fuckin around. but that's not important.
i feel like my emotions are chained to a wall...
and the only ones getting out are the bad ones.
for some reason, they persevere...
nothing's helping out.
thanks nothing.
why even try.
if i know that i don't have a big chance at succeeding, why whould i even try so hard?
i'm most likely going to fail. it's like i'm trying for the sake of trying.
i don't know if should continue to try... it seems so pointless...
i don't even know if it's worth trying.
if i fail, i knew it was going to happen.
where is my mind?
i'm most likely going to fail. it's like i'm trying for the sake of trying.
i don't know if should continue to try... it seems so pointless...
i don't even know if it's worth trying.
if i fail, i knew it was going to happen.
where is my mind?
yessir.
i feel great. i don't know why. it's probably because i've been having a good time.
yeah, i think that's why. don't really want to write anything long.
so.... that's it.
yeah, i think that's why. don't really want to write anything long.
so.... that's it.
wassup mah nig.
yo, i gots some mad flow
go fuck yahself you manbitchhoe
rape ya on dis 3 demension
as a matter of fact, i should mention
the way you make me laugh
when you fail all the time, times a half
i'm tha man, im gonna epic win
at bowlin, i ain't finna miss a pin
comin up with dis shit off da top of mah head
keepin on readin dis u gonna be dead
cuz a clowns
gonna take you down
to the bottom of the land and set you free
so you can see the true side of me
everyday i sit and stare
when you look all i do is glare
you think this is about love?
your mindset's below, i'm above
im jking
i dont know what i'm saying
thought of this shit while i was playing
legend of zelda. XD
i was listening to way too much MF Doom.
go fuck yahself you manbitchhoe
rape ya on dis 3 demension
as a matter of fact, i should mention
the way you make me laugh
when you fail all the time, times a half
i'm tha man, im gonna epic win
at bowlin, i ain't finna miss a pin
comin up with dis shit off da top of mah head
keepin on readin dis u gonna be dead
cuz a clowns
gonna take you down
to the bottom of the land and set you free
so you can see the true side of me
everyday i sit and stare
when you look all i do is glare
you think this is about love?
your mindset's below, i'm above
im jking
i dont know what i'm saying
thought of this shit while i was playing
legend of zelda. XD
i was listening to way too much MF Doom.
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